Archive | November 2013


I stay out of politics, out of things I feel to small and helpless to effect or change. Maybe I am too trusting and never think our human race will let it all go completely to sh*t… I imagine someone big and powerful coming in and putting a stop to this!

Because there IS power out there and there is money!!!!
But all our worlds power and money is in the wrong hands…

I’m sad today.
I don’t get it, I just don’t get it. Not just in South Africa, the world or more specifically the humans in it… There is something seriously twisted, the worlds falling apart… People are ripping it, and each other, apart!

Today it’s too late.
Between news of our officially extinct black rhino, more hideous mass savage slaughtering/poaching/harpooning of wildlife on land and at sea
and how humans treat other HUMANS !!
We can’t all be sooooooo DAMN stupid to get this all so damn wrong.


When is enough enough?
When do the big shot people actually use their power to do GOOD, on a huge scale?
Yeah I may just be a little day-dreamer but I’ve got a brain and something called common sense and I am sitting in a country where the president has built an amusement park to call home, whilest schools in the township are literally falling apart. Our animals are being hunted and their ‘trophy’ dead bodies shared all over social networks…. The black rhino is officially EXTINCT today, because of the desire for rhino horn and it’s “incredible medicinal and healing qualities” and I have to feel (not only devastated) but slightly confused as to how this downward spiral can continue.

How have we got it so wrong? Societies mentality is cruel and selfish. There is no love for anything but ourselves.


The Asians are (supposedly) some of the smartest people on the planet in regards to technology and ideas (Again….. SUPPOSEDLY) … but this belief and complete and utter disregard for other lives, species, creatures is beyond disgusting and today I am even more embarrassed to be apart of this planet and too useless to make any difference at all.

I just type and vent.
Like everyone.
Because you think your little tiny message will reach the right people, effect the right people

somewhere somehow.

and then I press post.



[I guess now’s as good a time as any to reflect on the last  six months of my life, sitting in Gatwick airport overlooking the airplane that’s just pulled in and waiting to board]

The last six months have brought experiences I know I never imagined, and to put it into words …
choose the right words…
to confine it to only words…
Well, it can’t be done.


You see, most of my dreams came true, the dreams I had for this trip, the dreams that were in my power. The dreams that were within this tangible world and not the highly unlikely fantasy-world that I live in in my head a lot of the time. During my time alone, this imagination has had the chance to run WILD. What I have seen, where I have been, and who I am has been magnified….
all because I have trusted my gut and the process, and life felt right

Until it started to feel wrong

I’m ready to go home because I have maximized this time abroad, and milked it for all it’s worth. I have been referring to it as six months on travel crack! I haven’t been in one place for longer than six weeks and it’s exhilarating, and eventually, exhausting.

I have found a lot, I have learnt to be present and soak up everything around me like a limitless sponge. I have become content in silence and confident in my independence. I have learnt what’s important and what’s not. I have argued with myself, and I have both won and lost the arguments. I have answered many of my difficult questions. And there are even more I haven’t got to yet. But one step at a time I am quietening and fulfilling this complicated and insatiable mind.

I’m coming home refreshed
With a new found belief in myself
I have found confidence in my new story
and the stories I have to tell now that I’ve started to live the way I want to live

I will borrow words that ring true for me, from a song that has been going through my mind all day:

“I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the world I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the world that I’m coming

Back where I belong, I never felt so strong
I feel like there’s nothing that I can’t try
And if you with me put your hands high

If you ever lost a light before, this ones for you
And you, the dreams are for you”